I originally set up this blog to document my journey back into the world of horses. It still is but with a difference. Due to my mental health difficulties, of which I am not ashamed, I’ve decided to find a form of therapy that involves horses.
I’ve tried getting back into working with them but I’m just not up to it. So, rather than totally give up, I would like to regain any lost confidence that I have by using them as a form of therapy, help and support. My confidence has been shattered with horses as well as with the world in general. For me, I believe that this is the only way to go if I ever hope to get any happiness or peace in my life.
I am going through a mental crisis at the moment. Self-harming and stronger suicidal thoughts are included in that. I don’t have that many crisis’s; I’ve tended to work through them or something has come along to drag me back out of them. It’s scary believing that you are not valued as a person by those that should matter. The thought that people are thinking “what the hell are you existing for?” is heart-breaking for me.
I’m a sensitive soul, really, deep down, and I never wish any ill on anyone. But, it seems, that that reasoning is not directed towards me. Apparently, I’m manipulative, a dramatist, a liar and cold-hearted. Something I honestly aspire to, naturally . It’s hard knowing that what you used to do as a career, you can no longer do, because you have been damaged psychologically beyond repair. Horses were and are my life and I believe they can help me a lot with my problems.
Now, the next step begins…a search for Equine Therapy.
Incidentally, I’ve learnt my lesson, so no mention will be made of the therapy service will be made by name. Horses will not be mentioned by name but only by characteristics. Any riding I do, will be more about me and how I get on and NOT about the horses, the instructors or the workers involved.
- The Slide, The Bump and The Slip – An Equine Touch Journey (polandyourway.wordpress.com)
- The Colorado Therapy Horses Help Heal Our Wounded Warriors And Many Others (k99.com)
- Equine Assisted Therapy (wildhorsediaries.wordpress.com)
- What is Therapeutic Horsemanship? (gentlestrides.com)